I went to Bali!!!!! No! I’ll say it again because I don’t think you understand my excitement!!
Ok! Now that I got that out the way, let me tell you all about my trip to Bali from the beginning.
On Dec 6th, I traveled to Los Angeles to meet with my boyfriend so he and I could fly out to Bali together but let’s fast forward to my mental state prior to going there. Initially, I couldn’t get excited about going to Bali to celebrate my birthday because I was thinking about my dad so much. I was in a very sad space for about a week, crying every day just thinking about celebrating a birthday without him being here physically, something I haven’t had to do in 31 years. I was doing my best to “push through” sorta speak and to be honest, I didn’t get excited about the trip until the night before I flew out to Los Angeles. I sat on the floor and cried so hard on Facetime with my boyfriend while I shared everything that laid heavy on my heart. He reminded me of how loved I am by my father, him, and everyone else. He helped me to see that I am actually going to be traveling soon, something I love to do and something my dad always enjoyed watching me do along with living life and being happy. Afterward, I watched one of my favorite movies: Eat, Pray, Love while eating pizza and it made me feel so much better. I had to get my mind right about my blessings. I embraced the fact that I had and still do have a loving father. I embraced that at this moment, I am watching one of my favorite movies and within the next two days, I’ll be in the exact place where the love portion of this movie was filmed. I embraced the fact that I now have a special person in my life who would do anything to make my heart smile like surprising me by booking a birthday celebration to one of my dream places and a place that’s on my vision board, Bali!!! I embraced all of it, traveled to Bali, and had the time of my life!!!!!!
It was a mental process accepting the fact that I am celebrating a birthday without my dad here for the first time in my life but being in Bali and with my lover made my birthday so special. Bali was BEAUTIFUL! I have never been on a more perfect vacation, seriously!! From the smallest things like flying with my boyfriend for the first time on a 15 hour flight to China then 5 hours to Bali. To the largest things such as: riding an elephant, sea walking, parasailing, and bike riding to the beach to have lunch. I was just so happy the entire time while we were there. I knew I needed this getaway. I knew my dad wouldn’t want me to be home crying on my birthday. I knew that weeping may endure for a night but JOY will always come in the morning!!!! I knew it and it did!!!!!!
Thank you, GOD!
Thank you, Daddy, and Thank you, Lover!!!!